Another Update

  This week was the last week to complete our 20Time projects, but don't worry I'll still be blogging and working on this. Just not for school. Once I "complete" my project I will be writing an essay on what this blog has taught me and if I feel like I accomplished my goal. I believe I will post said essay, with a bit of editing, as a final school-linked blog post. Then continue blogging; my updates may or may not be more sporadic as I continue to work on my time management.
  But so far I have really enjoyed doing this and I feel like I have accomplished my goals. The response has been amazingly positive and my family and friends have been super supportive. A huge shout out to you, my readers. Thank you so much for putting up with me and my babbling and for taking the time to read this blog and ask me questions. I love you all very much! And I couldn't do this without any of you.

I'm Not Broken, I Don't Need to be Fixed

I'm not the greatest at titles, it's hella long.

I decided on this title because when someone, upon finding out about my asexuality, asked me if part of my brain was broken. I bit my tongue and told them that no, I'm not broken and I don't need to be fixed. I was kind of proud to finally be able to say that and believe it. Asexuality is just a part of me; a part that's always been there and when I first discovered it, the name 'asexuality' came with some relief. I'd finally found a name for what I had spent all my life honestly thinking was a broken part of me.

I've spent my whole life surrounded by the world continually talking about crushes and sex. As well as perpetuating the myth that you can't have love without sex. Honestly it's no wonder I, and so many like me, think there's something wrong with us. Which is a very sad fact, but true.

Asexuality was also a scary concept when I first read about it; it meant that what I had always wanted- 'normalcy', was just not happenin. And as I started to accept my not-straightness I sincerely hoped I was gay or bi, anything but who I was. My gut reaction though was joy. I remember gasping and whispering about how much this fit me, for a moment accepting myself and who I am. Right before the fear struck me and I tried to forget about asexuality. Yet like a loose tooth, it niggled and wiggled until it was finally free and I started to truly accept myself.

I have since accepted my awesome ace self, I wear my colours with pride, and I have many, many ace jokes and puns up my sleeve. Probably too many. There are still moments of doubt and those dark feelings and thoughts do come back; but overall I have accepted myself and I am happy in my own skin.

Thank you for reading and putting up with my babbling! Your feedback is always appreciated, so, comment away! Also, I will admit the tooth thing was weird; metaphors are obviously not my thing...

Obstacles 2.0

  So I've run into another obstacle: time management. I'm very bad at it; which is something I'm trying to work on, everything just seems to get away from me. Hence improving my time management. I have decided to put the Representation Matters series on hold until I have the time to review the content and write proper, well thought out posts.
  Now for an update on yours truly:
  I'm seventeen now, so I should probably update my bio. Chemistry is trying to brutally murder me, but hey, I still like it! Even though it doesn't like me. I actually don't have too much going on right now, just school and getting my beginners-which I should have gotten a year ago, I know, I know. The next two months will be super busy though. With the school musical, Beauty and the Beast, in May and the April concert. I will be very busy, it'll be a good busy though.

  Thanks for reading and putting up with my blabbering! Comments, feedback, etc are all very appreciated.

Obstacles

So, with exams last week I didn't get a post up, but I did round out this first semester with a 94 average! Yay!

Now, we'll get to the point of this post, obstacles.

I've come across one major obstacle with this project: the lack of information out there on asexuality. And the information that is available is mainly on how to 'fix' asexuality, which makes for illegible rants and blog posts.

I've reached out to my school counselor and my school health teacher to see if they can help me out, but there is precious little true information on asexuality out there. I aim to work on changing this, which is why I will be compiling a page of resources on asexuality, so people researching it will not have as much trouble as I am having. I'm attempting to clear a little path in this jungle. And interestingly enough Tumblr has been a pretty good place to go for information.

The sheer number of medical articles on 'fixing' asexuality is very discouraging, yet I also find it makes this blog more of a challenge. I get to climb bigger mountains and conquer bigger obstacles, I find myself enjoying the challenges that are arising.

Smaller obstacles have been that it took longer than I thought to set up a website, also, my school's wifi does not allow me to access Blogger. I've been typing them in Google docs or posting them through the mobile app.

Thanks for reading! Comments, questions, and feedback are always appreciated.